it's me again, this time coming straight from my heart, not my rational mind. and you know what it's saying to me?
don't give up.
things will get much better and i'll get back "October" again.
it's not that simple tho.
especially when the person you love with your entire soul makes you feel like youre unimportant.
example a: you've been off of work since idk, maybe 10:30 and you said in a text "think what you want and let it be that, ok." before that, you said that we'd talk later. well, its more than later. in fact, its too late. and still no text. all i see is you on twitter and tumblr updating and reblogging without so much as a i'm done with work but i still don't know what to say so i need more time. instead you avoid me and the subject. this is what i mean when i tell you that i need you to talk to me. last week thursday? you took a "day off" not texting anyone. how did i find out? i randomly saw a post on my dashboard from you that said that you weren't texting.... can someone please explain to me why you just could simply text your girlfriend and tell her that?! at least i would've understood and not panicked. smh. last night i texted you i love you. three hours later, i wake to a very nice "i love you too baby" text which made me sleep so much easier. but then everything changed when your bill came in the mail. "i can't do this anymore." yup. i couldve seen that coming from five miles away. you can't do what?! have enough balls to tell me you want out instead of