I feel like I'm always going to be in this place. I'm never fully satisfied. I never get what I want.
Caressa said this to me today "...Instead of having faith is someone else who may never come through, you should have faith in finding someone who will," and then Denise told me that "Maybe she needs you but will never know, so its not worth waiting."
"When you make yourself available to someone, they feel like they don't have to put in the work..."
Its beginning to become more and more clearer everyday. The more I don't talk or associate with you, the easier it becomes for me to move on. I never thought I'd be in a place where I want to forget everything, but I feel like for my wellbeing, its the best thing to do. I need time to myself and I need to figure out whats good for me.
I see what happened between us as a blessing in disguise.... I don't know the blessing yet, but I'm sure I'll figure it out soon enough.
I would almost rather be bitter than sad.